I followed my sensei =)

Bismillah...

Hahaha...

Rupanya sensei baru buat account di ResearchGate..

So I baru follow you sensei.

He will always be someone I look up to...

and I still remember he told me to sleep less if I really want to be a good researcher.. 

I will sensei... I will be a good researcher who you will be proud of.. insyaAllah...

Note to self 7

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim...

Approaching the day for the interview.. I can't deny that I'm worried and a bit scared...

This will be the first interview after i got turn down for the same offer at different place in 2013.

I was denied the position for "i-don't-know-why" reason.. 

It was a "not-so-good" experience.. 

May Allah help me with this one.. 

Allahumma ameeenn...

"Everything comes to you in the right moment. Be patient, be grateful"

Nabi ﷺ said in a hadith Qudsi: “What has occurred to you was never to miss you and what has missed you was never destined to occur to you.” (Tirmidhi)

A "not-so" remote place called HOME

Bismillahirrahman Arrahim

Again, I miss you

I wish to embrace you

Like I used to..

[HS, May 17th 2018] 

Me in Hakodate.. not as student anymore... but as postdoc.. I miss my sensei and Hakodate so much..

It's 1 Ramadhan...  and I just received an invitation letter to an interview for a permanent post. And the letter makes me ponder.. Perhaps.... it's time to fly again.. to quite a remote place where i can live and breath comfortably.. like I used to when I was in Hakodate... I hope so..

Edit: Guess what! sensei just emailed me.. Macam tau2 je kamik rinduuuu

Heart of a traveller

Bismillah..

Ceritera rindu..

Kebiasaan di Hakodate yang sangat saya rindui adalah berpagi2, kerana Subuhnya awal. Sekitar jam 2-3 pagi di Malaysia (average sepanjang tahun - kiraan saya..). Selesai qiam, solat subuh dan baca quran, saya mula memasak - makan pagi, bekal tengahari dan makan malam sekali harung. Jam 7 pagi, selesai semuanya, kemudian saya berjalan ke lab. Saya yang pertama datang, menyapa pak guard yg dari malam tadi bertugas dan mengambil kunci dari mereka.

"Lab mikrobiologi ya?" tanya pakcik guard.. "Ya pakcik"...

"Taihen ne... " (susah ye?) katanya lagi sebab malam tadi pun saya yang last keluar lab..

Saya senyum... Penat.. Perit.. satu badan sakit2 malam tadi.. tapi saya bahagia... sebab anehnya, selepas tidur malam yang mungkin cuma sekitar 4-5 jam itu, saya sungguh bertenaga.

Saya rindukan pagi yang nyaman dan tenang.

Sepanjang 10 bulan di Malaysia, saya busy terus.. Terus-terusan, sehingganya sudah 2-3 kali saya jatuh sakit...

Anehnya, di Jepun, sepanjang 3 tahun, cuma sekali saya ke hospital. Itu pun Dr diagnose tiada apa2. Cuma terlalu penat dan stress sebab nak hantar thesis katanya (LoL).

People wonder, kenapa saya rindu sangat hidup di Jepun? Saya juga hairan.. Tapi difikir2 balik, Jepun tempat saya benar2 berlajar berdikari. Belajar hidup sendiri yang benar2 sendiri. Belajar kenal diri (owh rupanya sy seorang introvert). Belajar conquering my fears dan banyak lagi.

Saya rindu amat...

Perhaps, japan is a home to my heart..

or maybe, my heart is longing to travel again.

the idea of facing the same struggles in foreign country is somehow soothing me.

because it's the time when i feel the closest to my Lord.

Owh, mungkin itulah.. Rindu pada Tuhan..

Rindu mendekat denganNya.

Rindu amat...

"Be in this world as if you were a stranger or a traveller" - Prophet Muhammad SAW 

My Diving Class

Bismillah...

Waahhh.. Been few months since my last visit tapi macam dah lama sangat.
I was and still busy doing my experiment.
My current experiment is on fish vaccination so i did a little bit of fish rearing and Alhamdulillah the experiment will soon ended...  It's suuuupeeerr laborious so at the moment i cannot stand it any longer because i need to write new paper and research proposal.

Psssttt.. I went for scuba diving in Perhentian tau..
Hahaha... Surprising right????
dan yang lebih surprise... i di "paksa" diving hanya lepas 2 lessons.. OMG... i am soooo angry with them.. it was a miscommunication between my instructor and me..
but i just go with it and guess what???
I did it..
I just dove in the ocean..
It was frightening yet a beautiful experience.
I wish to do it again... perhaps after learning some basic swimming.. InsyaAllah..

Till then..
XOXOXO

I'm a post-doc!

Bismillah...

It's been a while after my last post.. 

Praise to god for my wonderful experience as PhD student for the last 3 years..

I'm currently a new post-doc in my home country.. 

It's been 5 months to be exact..

Hopefully i'll gain much more in this journey.. 

and occasionally i'll share the experience here in this blog.. For future me... 

and you perhaps... 

so, enjoy...

(⇧ white, pure and humble.. and this is my humble beginning as a scholar, insyaAllah) 

Ketika rindu menyapa

Bismillah, salam subuh dr Hakodate. Tiba2 rasa rindu menerpa. Tak sanggup nak delete blog ni.. tempat mengenang ni..

Pagi ni nak cerita tentang Hakodate, kampung sy selama 3 tahun. Tempat yg buat sy bahagia walau dalam sibuk. Tempat yg mengajar sy bahagia walau hidup minimalis. 

Sepanjang hampir 30thun usia, sy rasa sy paling bahagia disini (tolak rasa sunyi sedikit sbb sendiri), sy paling cantik (perasan sendirilah) dan hari2 sy paling indah sehingga setiap susah dan tekanan ketika menyiapkan research lebih mudah untuk disisihkan berbanding ketika di Msia.

Bagi sy org jepun paling mudah mencari tenang (tanpa melakukan ritual agama) dalam sibuk. Alam semulajadinya masyaAllah indah. Putih salji di musim sejuk, sakura dan bayu lembut di musim semi, bunyi unggas dan riang2 di musim panas, dan warna emas, merah, hijau dan kuning daun2 di musim luruh..

Gambar updated on May 2018. Rumah jiran2 di musim salju

Itu tak cerita lagi tasik yg mengeras di musim dingin dan bagaimana warna merah di kaki langit mewarnai landskap putih salju.. Salji di ranting2 pohon yg gondol mulai mengeras ketika disinari matahari, dan membentuk kristal yg sungguh indah.. Perasaan ketika salji baru mulai turun itu paling bahagia. Ketika butir lembut salji menyentuh panas kulit.. Allah indahnya... Di musim semi pula, sakura yg ditiup angin lembut jatuh berguguran seakan salju berwarna pink.. Berjatuhan menutupi jalan2 dan air sungai dan tasik.. akhir musim semi dimana pohon mulai mengeluarkan daun2nya dengan berbagai2 "shades". Di atas gunung terlihat jelas, dan paling istimewa ketika sy teliti daun muda yg baru keluar, warnanya cantik sekali dan mengingatkan sy tentang kita, kehidupan kita yg pendek dan bagaimana Allah bisa menghidupkan setelah mematikan..

Musim panas pula sedikit pendek tapi indah dek warna warni bunga2 mekar. Harum semerbak. Panasnya memang terasa sbb sy sudah terbiasa dengan suhu -10 degree di musim dingin.. Tapi bayu musim panas, sesekali menyapa, masyaAllah buat lepas segala kusut.. Ini musim paling nyaman berbasikal. Itulah, dengan basikal kuning sy itu kami ke pasaraya berpagi2 buat beli groceries. Nak mengejar harga murah.. Bahagia... Bilamana dapat beli sebiji tembikai (suika) dengan harga ¥1200. Ya, musim ini juga musim buah peach (momo).. Harum manis dan sedikit kelat rasanya...ini musim pesta dan festival. Musim keraian. Semua orang gembira. Banyak waktu ketika melewati rumah2 Jepun, terbau asap "barbecuing" sambil terdengar tawa si anak kecil dan bapanya. Allah indah ya Allah...

Musim luruh, daun2 mulai bertukar warna. Dari lab, terlihat jelas beda warna diatas gunung. Dan di akhir2 musim luruh, terlihat sedikit putih salju menutupi..

Gambar updated on 17 Mei 2018. Bunga jiran. Photo taken by mommy masa datang melawat saya di Hakodate

Aaah indahnya Jepun.. InsyaAllah mimpi sy dulu tidak silap. Sy bahagia~